God’s Will in Entrusting Me with the Gospel Mission

“Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free” Jn 8:32

God granted the truth of the new covenant in order to give true freedom to us, who sinned in heaven and came to this earth. Ever since I received the truth when I was a student, I enjoyed God’s blessing of spiritual freedom to the full extent.

However, I started to change after getting into college. I found more and more things that I wanted to try, and God’s commands and teachings felt like chains that shackled me. Complaints and grumbles began to bud and became huge enough to be out of my control. The love and emotions that I felt at first gradually disappeared. I felt uncomfortable with the brothers and sisters’ advice and concern coming from their love.

I knew better than anybody else that I was spiritually walking the wrong path. But the problem was that I had no idea where to start fixing; I was also uncertain if it was even possible to live according to God’s will like before.

I thought things would change if my surroundings changed. It seemed that I would be able to get rid of my negative mindset and regain my first faith full of joy if I lived in a different place with a new mindset. Around that time, I had an opportunity to go abroad for language training. I thought it was a good chance for me. After much thought, I left for Brisbane, Australia, with a vague expectation.

At that time, I didn’t know that my attitude towards the life of faith wouldn’t change right away even if I changed my environment. I was still self-centered, reckless, and clumsy. It’s just like the Korean saying goes: “The bowl that leaks inside the house also leaks outside the house.”

When I finished the language course and had a little time left until my visa expired, I went to church more often. Only then could I see my surroundings which I had previously paid little attention to. I was sorry that I hadn’t been of any help to Zion.

I felt a sense of mission arising in my heart like a little flame; I wanted to find at least one soul before going back to Korea. I felt the fervor for the gospel after such a long time! I courageously went out to preach the gospel every single day; I had never preached so fervently in Korea.

It was very hard for me; I ran out of energy soon, and having no visible result made me feel enervated. On top of that, my flaws and rough edges became more evident while I was with the gracious brothers and sisters. Feeling frustrated and upset, I often cried when I was alone in my room.

I wanted to give up on everything and go back to Korea, but I couldn’t, because I knew there must have been a reason God led me here. Whenever I felt distressed, I calmed myself down by writing a letter to Heavenly Mother, and preached even more fervently with a determination to never give up.

God willingly helped me when I desperately asked Him for help. He gave me strength and strong faith so that I wouldn’t fall out of exhaustion. God also humbled me and removed my arrogance reaching the sky.

The greatest force that motivated me to preach the gospel was the fruit which God gave us constantly. I was indescribably moved when I saw the brothers and sisters, who had just received the truth, acknowledge God Elohim with their mouths, keep the regulations of the new covenant, and boldly preach to their families and friends.

I once regarded preaching as meaningless. I couldn’t understand why they took time out of their busy schedule to preach God’s word. Finding the heavenly family members like that didn’t seem realistic to me. I had such a shallow and superficial way of thinking.

God entrusted me with the gospel mission to awaken my immature spirit and gave me precious talents for the gospel. I am so sorry and thankful to God for His grace. Only after participating in preaching the gospel did I realize keenly how precious a soul is, how much Father and Mother love Their children, how much I’d sinned by acting as I pleased, and how much I’d hurt and worried the brothers and sisters.

Now I understand why God has entrusted us with the gospel mission. True change starts from within, not from external factors or circumstances, and a change of heart occurs during the process of preaching the gospel. If I had ignored the gospel mission even in Australia, my soul would still have been wandering around aimlessly with no direction.

Father and Mother waited for me to be reborn, although I was so indiscreet and immature. Now I am full of joy and happiness, instead of complaints. This is the grace of Father and Mother who have waited patiently for me with love. It is also the freedom of my soul that I can enjoy after realizing the truth. Now I have come back to Korea, and the only thing left for me is to work hard to complete the gospel mission, which I have neglected before. Until the gospel work is completed, I will only look to God and preach the truth, as a faithful and humble worker.