Mother’s Prayer That Leads Me to Life

On the earth, God creates life. Human mothers carry their children before they are finally given life. In that time, the children can hear and know their mothers’ voices even before they are born, though they have never met them.

I realize this is the same with Heavenly Mother and our spiritual life. I am certain that it is no coincidence that Mother gave me birth, prays for me, and thinks of me. Even before I was born on the earth, Mother was with me, guiding my entire life, and finally led me to Her. For this, I am so thankful and I would like to share my fragrance of Zion regarding this.

When I was eight or so, I often wondered if this world was real or if it was just a dream, while in bed at night. I also thought a lot of what would become of me after death. And I was heartbroken at the thought that after death, there would be nothing else.

My family hardly attended church while I was growing up, and in my high school days I had to plead with my mom to take me to church. Although I was eager to know God, I never felt that any of the churches was following God correctly. I wondered if there was something wrong with me. I often thought about what I should do as a child of God. ‘Is there no law for me to keep?’ I had been invited to many churches, but I did not want to go to their churches.

Nevertheless, I never gave up searching for God. After graduating high school, my mom sent me off to Georgia, where I lived for one month with a long-term family friend who was supposedly “Christian.” They often argued and fought, pointing out one another’s faults and the son who was an adult did not live a very good life. Every Sunday, they would watch a Protestant pastor on the television, and would encourage me to join. While there in Georgia, I heard bad news about priests in the Catholic Church and thought to myself, ‘How can these people really be from God, if they were doing such things!’

When I became an adult, I went through a lot of things. Whenever I thought life was tough, I cried and prayed to God, “I feel as if I do not know you. I really want to know you.”

I was heartbroken at the thought of feeling distant from God. Looking back, I do not understand how I could feel such a way, but somehow my spirit knew that I did not know God and wanted to know God.

I was drawn to read the Bible and made a resolution to read it every day to be close to God. During that time, I read many things and noticed, “I needed to be baptized to enter heaven.” I panicked at the thought that I had never been baptized. I wanted to follow God’s word in the Bible, but I did not want to be baptized in just any church. So I decided I would be baptized when I found the right church. I also came across 1 Corinthians chapter 11, regarding the veil regulation; I became distraught at the thought that there was absolutely no church following this practice.

As days passed by, my husband texted me that he had been approached by people from the Church of God who showed him the prophecies of the Book of Revelation, and he told me that God had a bride. He was very excited as he had just been reading the Book of Revelation days before. Two weeks passed before we finally visited the Church of God; amazingly enough, the church was just three minutes away from the place we lived.

Once arriving, we were greeted warmly. It was a very beautiful place full of love. Everyone was full of smile, and there were people from all nations. They served us wholeheartedly. I felt as if I was in another world. My husband was already in love even before the Bible study. Now looking back, I think we must’ve felt Heavenly Mother’s love in Zion.

Realizing through the Bible how to receive the forgiveness of sins, we were baptized immediately. There, I saw the sisters wearing veils and praying. The verses concerning wearing a veil flashed through my mind. I felt so at ease because it felt like God was comforting me, showing me that I was in the right place.

After that day, my husband and I came to Zion almost every day. It truly felt like family. We followed the commandments of God that we learned through studies and kept the Sabbath services too. I was amazed at the fact that Heavenly Father had come to the earth a second time to save us. I couldn’t believe this amazing truth had been hidden just down the street from me. I was deeply thankful as I felt God had answered my prayers.

At times, my mind got filled with my own knowledge and doubts, but I’d tried to confirm them through the Bible. Zion members also took care of me very well, feeding the words of God to me every day. The more I studied the words of God, the more I could see how perfect the Bible was and how the entire Bible testified that the Spirit and the Bride, the Saviors of this age, are the true God. I had finally met God whom I longed and prayed to know. Wondering how I would preach the truth to my family and the people around me, I was filled with delight.

Before the truth, although I loved God, I believed God loved everyone, and even selfishly mumbled to myself at one point that I did not want God’s love but instead someone else’s love that chose to love me particularly. How foolish I was! Heavenly Father and Mother have chosen us before the creation of the world and have been giving us immeasurable love, but I did not know that.

All the things that I have came from Mother. I thank Mother for giving me life and for allowing me to stay in Zion. I have realized what life is, and have gained new life through God. I will try to put off my old self and to put on new self. I give heartfelt thanks to God Elohim for saving me and loving me though I’m less than nothing.